white eye liner

Yesterday was apparently national coming out day, which I completely missed until the Captain came out to me as we were getting ready for bed. It’s a day worthy of celebration, of course, so happy belated coming out day, everyone! Love, your friendly neighbourhood bisexual.

Today is just a normal day, as far as I’m aware, but I thought I’d make myself a bit pretty. I never use my white eyeliner for anything except dots all over my eyes, but when I saw this video I realised that contrary to what I previously believed, you can make a white cat eye work. So I recreated it!


I used Illamasqua’s liquid liners in Scribe and Abyss – a white liquid liner seems a bit weird at first, but I’ve honestly used it a lot more than I thought I would when I first got it. Would recommend!

Oh and hey my hair is grey! I had to get my roots done, and I hadn’t actually planned on changing it up, but while I was there I caught myself thinking I should get some grey toner on the way home, so I let my hairdresser do it instead. It was terrifying to once again venture out into the straight world (hah!) but I survived, and I managed to find a girl who would at least listen to me when I asked her for some layers.

graphic liner and vietnamese food

Today I’ve experimented with some graphic eyeliner! I have been a bit reluctant to do it previously because I keep assuming I do not have a steady hand. I don’t know why, because I’ve perfected the art of the winged liner, but it’s one of those things that I’ve carried with me for years – I did not have a very steady hand when I was younger, so despite evidence that I have improved, I have gone through life thinking that I am the sort of person who just can’t do certain things, like draw a straight line. And those are the kinds of assumptions we should always be challenging about ourselves!

This is perhaps not the most elaborate graphic liner ever, but I am pretty happy with myself for making a first attempt! Evolving and trying new things is always good, even if it is something small.

Me and my graphic eyeliner went to H&M to find a pair of jeans – part of me feels really silly for going halfway across the world and still going to the same stores, but what can you do when they’re the only ones who carry jeans that are high waisted enough for me!? Then we met up with the Captain and went for some Vietnamese food on Brunswick street. It was okay, but I don’t think Vietnamese will ever be a favourite of mine. I do like rice paper rolls, but I just can’t stand noodle soup, and that seems to be most of what there is to vietnamese food. Maybe one day I’ll be proven wrong!

back end of summer

Summer is here! you have no idea how hilarious it is to me as a European to be writing that in October. I’m loving it, though; I know a lot of people like autumn because it’s cozy and you get to wear more layers, but I hate it. I would like to be warm without wearing layers. When all my friends back home post updates about how it’s getting colder and darker, all while I am walking along on the beach, wishing I had an umbrella to shield myself from the sun, something within me grows three sizes. I don’t think it’s my heart, because a heart shouldn’t grow from something that just slightly relies on schadenfreude, but it’s something all right.

I chose to celebrate the return of summer by doing two things I haven’t done in a long time; one of them was to get back in the hoop and get some practice time in, which I haven’t done for over a year. The other was to get there by bike, which I haven’t done in probably more than five years. It was a lot of fun and I could feel my thighs growing three sizes as well! But apparently a bike seat is pretty unforgiving so now my bum hurts a lot. I’m gonna say it was worth it, though; I’ve wanted to get a bike since I got here because I feel like it’s a waste of my time to have to get the tram every time I want to go into the city.  Now that it’s warm enough, and once my bum recovers, I will get the bike instead and no longer be a slave to PTV.

I celebrated with a glittery selfie – as I posted on Instagram, I think I looked especially gay today. I think it’s the snapback. I’m in a very extravagant mood when it comes to makeup lately. I seem to go through two cycles; perfectly applied neutral makeup, or “my five year old chose these colours”. They’re both nice, but clearly five year olds just have way more fun!

instagram favourites

It’s no secret that I am a complete Instagram addict. If I had to delete all my social media but one, Instagram is definitely the one I’d hold on to! I love it for many things, but one of its main benefits is how easy it is to find quality makeup inspiration. so on that note, here are five of my favourite beauty focused Instagram accounts! Just as a warning, the last one I’m recommending is a special effects makeup account so here’s ya trigger warning for gore!

1. Sugarpill


This one won’t be new to most people who have any interest in makeup at all, obviously, but I definitely think it’s worth mentioning. They post a lot of amazing makeup looks from their fans, and I think the ratio of promo posts to makeup looks is perfect. Most brand pages will post a bit too much about this or that new product (fair enough, I suppose, but I prefer when it seems a bit more human), but Sugarpill has found the perfect balance. Also Shrinkle is adorable and I want to be her when I grow up (and I suspect I’m not the only one).

2. Adore Dolls Parlour


This is a Gold Coast based nail salon with nails that are the absolute BOMB. I die at every single thing they do (and yes, I realise that my bias towards pink is coming out in this collage). I was honestly considering going up to the Gold Coast when I go back to Australia just to get my nails done by them, but then lo and behold! I noticed that they are now doing a pop up shop in Melbourne twice monthly! I’m gonna have to email them ASAP to book my slot, and start researching what exactly I want my nails to look like.

3. Manny Gutierrez


I love it when guys wear makeup! I think gender roles in general are so tragic, so I am definitely here for anyone who’s doing their part to break them down. Especially when they look so good doing it! Manny’s pretty hilarious and he also has a Youtube channel so if you prefer people in motion you can get yours.

4. Mindy Hardy Nails


This is another nail art account that I love. I feel like 3D nails might be on the way out which makes me so sad because I absolutely love them. As far as I know there’s unfortunately no one in London who can actually do this, which seems really weird to me! So I just scroll through IG accounts like this and cry about how my nails might never look as good.

And so, for the last one, again it looks pretty gross but it’s all makeup! I’ll put it behind a read more so all you sensitive souls out there don’t have to worry. Continue reading “instagram favourites”

Favourite lashes

I love wearing false lashes. They make you look 200% more put together instantly, and when I’m going out, I don’t even feel halfway done if I’m not wearing them. It took me quite a long while to figure out how you were meant to put them on, but once I did, I never took them off (well… figuratively). The only thing I don’t like about them is that I can’t wear them with my glasses, because they get caught on them and I can’t blink properly.


These three are my absolute favourite pairs of lashes.

1. Half lashes from Daiso

I got these from Daiso, which is a Japanese store in Australia where everything is 2.40. Judging by just that, you’d expect them not to be great, but you’d be wrong. They are absolutely amazing, and every time I wear them I get compliments on them from at least one person. They’re a bit easier to apply than full lashes, because you don’t really need to bend them to fit your eye quite as much, so there’s no resistance in the band where it wants to pop off at then ends like so many lashes do! I’m pretty sure you can’t get them in the UK, so when I go back to Australia I definitely want to stock up.

2. “Kitty” lashes from the Vintage Cosmetic Company

These lashes look like natural lashes, but thicker and more beautiful. I wear them a lot with my Daiso lashes, because they look pretty similar, and together, they just make you look like a screen siren from the 40s. Beautiful!

IMG_55813. Scintillate by Kardashian Beauty

Now, I know that opinions differ quite wildly when it comes to the Kardashian family, but you cannot deny that their lashes are the bomb. These in particular are so cute, and I love wearing them with lighter makeup to get a bit of a doll-like look. The band is quite thick and sturdy, which is how I prefer it – nothing worse than lashes that just fly away in whichever direction when you’re trying to put them on.

There you have it, my three favourites! Honourable mention goes out to all my crazy sugar pill lashes; they’re beautiful, and I’m sure they’d be my favourites if I could just find an occasion to wear them…

Wish list

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I love shopping, like so many girls, and I have a bad habit of going shopping for things I don’t need and I didn’t want until I saw them in the shop. I’m trying to save money for my upcoming trip to Australia, so obviously I shouldn’t be spending my money on any old thing. So I made a wish list! Anything on this list, I am allowed to get. Anything not on it… I’d try to say I’m absolutely forbidden, but that’s probably the quickest way to make sure I’m gonna go shopping (I like to be contrary)! So I’ll say I have to think very hard about it before I actually get something that’s not on here.

1. Cashmere by Lime crime

I love this greyish nude. I have a sneaking suspicion it might make me look slightly dead, but I’m ok with that. I love Posture by Illamasqua as well, which is definitely zombie-fying on me. I miiiight also sneak a Carousel lipgloss into my order if/when I get this, but only if I’ve been very good and deserve a treat.

2. A strappy lingerie set

I love sexy lingerie and I don’t have enough of it. I’d love something by Agent Provocateur but I just don’t feel like I want to spend quite that much money on underwear. Maybe if someone else bought it for me! In the meantime, there’s a Victoria’s Secret set I’ve been eyeing for a while, and I feel like there’s a chance I might just have to go buy it for myself pretty soon.

3. Valentino pumps

Now, I will settle for something similar, but these are my dream pumps. I don’t really wear heels a lot, so right now the only pair I’ve got left are my pink sparkly Litas. Not exactly an inconspicuous shoe! So I need to get something a bit more toned-down. And these pumps are my holy grail. I hated them when I first saw them, but more often than not, that’s a sign I’ll end up loving whatever it is (yeah, don’t ask me how that works). I’d prefer buying a nice pair that will last me a long time to buying fifteen pairs of shoes I can use three times each and then they fall apart.

4. Mid-size bag

I have a big bag and a few small ones I can take with me if I go out, but I need a mid size one that I can fit my wallet, a water bottle and a few more things in. I have very specific requirements for it, so I haven’t found the perfect one yet, but when I do, I am snapping it up on the spot! I want one I can sling over my shoulder, slightly slouchy but still with some structure, and preferably a zipper rather than a flap. For some reason nothing like that seems to ever come my way, but I’m prepared to wait a long time for the right one.

colour explosion

One thing I’ve been planning on doing for years was add some colour to my scorpion tattoo on my right shoulder, but I just couldn’t think of what I wanted to do until a few months ago, when I noticed a tattoo on a friend of a friend. It was so cool and I’d never seen anything like it – it looked like someone had splashed watercolour on her skin. I asked her who did it, and she directed me to miss Emma Chiuman who, at the time, was living in Melbourne.

She was due to leave for Hong Kong in like a week, though.

Despair! Horror! Sudden dawning realisation that I was going to travel through Asia on my way back to Europe anyway! So yeah, I emailed her when I knew what date I’d be leaving, and set up an appointment.



Here it is! I am so pleased with how it turned out. I had a pretty shit time getting to Hong Kong but this definitely made it worth it! I feel like now it matches my personality so much better, and I can wear it with pride.


Let’s play spot the dorky pun!


Three weeks or so ago I decided that as a reward to myself for being a grownup I would reward myself with a septum piercing! I would do it on my last day in Melbourne as a final hurrah of sorts, and since today was my last day in Melbourne… there it is! I am super pleased. I couldn’t quite decide for a long time but finally I just thought that if I hate it I can always take it out when I go back to London and need to find work, and I won’t even have a visible scar – so in that way, it’s a very low stakes piercing.

I was super nervous before doing it, and it turns out I was right to be. My piercer was lovely and super cute (which, coming from me, is a huge compliment because I find maybe three guys a year cute) and could not have been more professional or reassuring but god damn it that was one of the most intensely painful things I’ve ever done. For reference and full disclosure, I have previously had my nipple pierced, which I think is widely regarded as the second most painful piercing you can do. If that was a three on the pain scale, this was easily an eight. It was over quickly, thankfully, and once it was in there I could barely feel it, but damn. Happy as I am with it, I can tell you that if my tortured wiggling had made it end up crooked and I had to come back and do it again, I don’t think I could have done it.

Ps. the lipstick I’m wearing is Cherry Red by Natural Collection from Boots and even though that is not a brand I would normally go for, I have to say this is the best red lipstick ever. It is the perfect red for someone who wants it just slightly blue toned. And cheap as!

professional model

A few weeks back I went to Carlton Gardens here in Melbourne with my friend Camille to take some photos. She’s taken a photography course, and wanted someone to shoot – I, on the other hand, thrive on attention and people telling me I’m pretty, so it was a match made in heaven.

I was really pleased with the photos! The last time I had someone take photos of me with a good camera was when I was 17 and did one of those “model for a day” things that were so popular around that time (possibly only in Sweden? You got your makeup done and had a photo shoot and then you got to buy the images you liked), and this was obviously way better.


This one is so cute! I think I’m generally a bit more busty than what suited her vision for this shoot, so she made me cover them up. Hashtag boobalicious girl problems!


I loved this one as well – so many people have told me I look just like Marilyn Monroe in this photo, and that’s my favourite compliment.

She also shot the image I’m using in my header! Thanks Camille ❤

stared into the abyss // abyss stared back

I’ve been wearing contacts for the past few years, once I finally got over my fear of getting an eye infection and going blind. I was not actually that vain when I was younger (I know, considering how vain I am now, that’s a real shocker!), so I was never as bothered by wearing glasses as many of my peers seemed to be. I didn’t really see the point until I started wearing more elaborate makeup, but now they’re a must.

I ordered online this time, which I’ve never done before since I’m a good girl and I always follow the recommendation of going to the optometrist to get your eyes checked once a year, and it only makes sense to get my contacts there. However, I really can’t be bothered finding one here and going through the whole process from start to finish when I know I’ll be leaving Australia soon anyway. Is that really lazy? It’s also partly because I think it’d be really expensive for me as a non-citizen, and I’d prefer to wait until I got back home.

Anyway, I decided to try something new! I got black contacts. My eyes are pretty dark anyway, but I’ve been meaning to try coloured contacts for a long time now.


There you have it! It’s not really a huge difference, but I can definitely tell that there’s something going on there. I probably wouldn’t re-purchase the ones I got this time (they’re really flimsy! I’m sure daily contacts were never this flimsy the last time I used them), but I’m definitely curious about what other kinds I could get. I’d love to start out with a pair that’s proper black, first of all!